Loss

We are back from Spain. Had a great time. But more about that later.

I had my second appointment with my doctor yesterday. Unfortunately we have lost the baby. The doctor did a sonogram and I'm sad to say there was no heartbeat and the baby didn't grow beyond 8 wks (should have been 11 1/2 weeks in size by now). So today I have to go to the medical center and my doctor will remove the baby and anything else that shouldn't be there anymore.

Needless to say we are very sad. We know it's nothing I did wrong, nor nothing we could have controlled. Some embryo's are just not genetically designed right to continue living. But still...

So we will get through this together and try again when the doctor gives us the OK (a few months time). I just hate that we have to start at square one again. And then there'll be so much worrying.

This really sucks. After the sonogram the doctor sent me to the hospital to get a second sonogram to be absolutely sure. It was difficult sitting in the waiting room amongst the women with big belly's. But I know (hope) I will get there one day soon.